My baby brother is the only person I trust with all of my secrets. He can’t tell anyone, and I like to think that if he could, he still wouldn’t. He sometimes runs his hands over my cuts for minutes, and I don’t mind, because he doesn’t understand and one day when he does I’m going to make him promise he never does to himself what I do to me. I’m scared that he will believe that if I did it, it’s okay that he does it. I would never want that for him, because he’s one of my best friends and the only man I need in my life. I love you Xavier.